i'm not too keen on the subject of suicide. however, i can understand its dictionary definition - the act of intentionally taking one's life.

this whole concept is fucked up, as it goes against all moral and ethical values, at least for myself. i cannot explain the immense heartbreak and dejection i would experience if any friend or loved one were to commit suicide, especially if they were truly close to me. i would even initially think of joining them in the spiritual world...

...but no. we gotta be stronger than this, better than this. humanly responsible for this. if you or someone else cannot feasibly stand the mental and emotional stress and complications they have to endure from one's suicidal death, that is as equally tragic as the suicide itself. this is why we were created as one species. to stand with each other. to fight for each other. to befriend each other. to take a step back from your own personal problems and have the utter kindness to say "hey man, do ya need a hug for your troubles?" i've met just a slim few people in my life who treat others like that, and that right there is enough kindness and support to go around.

of course the rest of the earth needed to fucking complain :/

i got pushed around both physically and mentally. was acussed of doing or saying shit that i never did say or do that i still to this day get called out for. in return did have thoughts of suicide and self-harm. committed self-harm. grew from those experiences. became a better person. a better friend. a better human being.

to all of those middle school bitches 'n' haters, please learn sooner or later to grow the fuck up.

instead of continuously bringing up shit from when we were covered in boils and lies, speak positively of people and maybe take a day off or two. if you are so low as to think you're so high and mighty, maybe take a look in the mirror every now and then. be reminded of the scared little kitten that lives underneath all that fake intimidation and teenage angst.

in short, be a better person. if you think of yourself as an ugly disgusting beast, surround yourself with others who care about you and are truly there for you to listen to your issues and support you whenever they can and want you to be the best version of yourself.

either that or find some new friends :)

- sonirby, world suicide prevention day 2025